It's not-... [ important... ] ... He didn't deserve it, at all.
[ Augh, okay, he's going to... release a tense breath and shake his head. ]
Apparently... overuse of magic weighs on me, mentally. I didn't know it would do that, so I wound up going too far in the forest. By the time I got back, I wasn't feeling like myself... And, while I was in the forest, I suddenly felt like something terrible had happened.
So, I listened to instinct, and I contacted Masayoshi, Goro, Kurama, and Akira. Nobody would tell me anything, so I wound up getting-... angry at being stuck where I was. One of them even told me he wasn't sure if everything was okay.
Then-... after everyone was back, Masayoshi said something that reminded me of the night that he- went off on me. That, combined with everything else, I... lashed out. I wanted to push him away, because all I could think was it would have been less painful to have never cared, at all--!
[ He's deflating a little. The guilt is finally settling properly onto his expression. ]
But, it's not an excuse. I shouldn't have overdone it with the magic, and I should know better than to let myself lose control like that. Masayoshi was sorry, and I tried to hit him anyway...!
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Date: 2018-08-10 04:19 am (UTC)[ Augh, okay, he's going to... release a tense breath and shake his head. ]
Apparently... overuse of magic weighs on me, mentally. I didn't know it would do that, so I wound up going too far in the forest. By the time I got back, I wasn't feeling like myself... And, while I was in the forest, I suddenly felt like something terrible had happened.
So, I listened to instinct, and I contacted Masayoshi, Goro, Kurama, and Akira. Nobody would tell me anything, so I wound up getting-... angry at being stuck where I was. One of them even told me he wasn't sure if everything was okay.
Then-... after everyone was back, Masayoshi said something that reminded me of the night that he- went off on me. That, combined with everything else, I... lashed out. I wanted to push him away, because all I could think was it would have been less painful to have never cared, at all--!
[ He's deflating a little. The guilt is finally settling properly onto his expression. ]
But, it's not an excuse. I shouldn't have overdone it with the magic, and I should know better than to let myself lose control like that. Masayoshi was sorry, and I tried to hit him anyway...!