"Hey, this is Morgana! I'm probably really busy doing super important stuff right now. But don't worry! Leave me a message and I'll get back to you before you can miss me too much. So look forward to it!"
[ ... This is cute, honestly. Aiden studies Morgana for a moment, and then reaches to lightly scratch him under the chin. ]
It's still strange to hear words like that, but... thanks.
[ And, after a hesitant pause... ]
Not... long before I got sent back to the school, I... [ letting his hand drop ] lost control.
I need to consume blood on a somewhat regular basis, because... of what I am. I haven't been human since I was six, you see... [ lips drawing together tightly ] Minato happened to cut himself, and I thought- I was fine, as far as the need for blood went. I wasn't feeling any differently than normal. So, it... hit out of nowhere.
[ His jawline tenses. ]
... As for Shido, I-...
[ One hand presses to the back of his neck. ]
I was stupid... I let- my emotions get the better of me, and there was no excuse there. Plain and simple, Akira saved him.
[ Yeah, no, he's holding information back, now. This is definitely the one time he's lying, because he's not even looking at Morgana, now. ]
[Morgana closes his eyes and purrs while the scratching lasts, ears flicked forward attentively. They open again once Aiden's hand drops, though; that's clearly the cue that they're moving into difficult territory.
Consume blood, huh..... so he's a vampire, or something like it? Aren't they supposed to like..... burst into flames in the sunlight or something? He's definitely seen Aiden out and about during the day. He's definitely not undead, either. So..... vampire-like, at least in terms of diet, but not a real one. That's..... probably troublesome for him, but fine? You can't really help what you need to eat to live.
The Shido thing, though..... that's so blatantly obviously either not the truth, or not the whole truth, that Aiden might as well be wearing a flashing neon sign around his neck. There's no explanation, no context, no details--Aiden's not even looking at him anymore.
Even if he can't see it, Aiden can probably feel the flat, unimpressed look fixed on him; the Judgmental Cat Stare is turned on full blast. The unspoken "Yeah, sure. And? What else?" might as well be a blunt demand, for an empath.]
It's not-... [ important... ] ... He didn't deserve it, at all.
[ Augh, okay, he's going to... release a tense breath and shake his head. ]
Apparently... overuse of magic weighs on me, mentally. I didn't know it would do that, so I wound up going too far in the forest. By the time I got back, I wasn't feeling like myself... And, while I was in the forest, I suddenly felt like something terrible had happened.
So, I listened to instinct, and I contacted Masayoshi, Goro, Kurama, and Akira. Nobody would tell me anything, so I wound up getting-... angry at being stuck where I was. One of them even told me he wasn't sure if everything was okay.
Then-... after everyone was back, Masayoshi said something that reminded me of the night that he- went off on me. That, combined with everything else, I... lashed out. I wanted to push him away, because all I could think was it would have been less painful to have never cared, at all--!
[ He's deflating a little. The guilt is finally settling properly onto his expression. ]
But, it's not an excuse. I shouldn't have overdone it with the magic, and I should know better than to let myself lose control like that. Masayoshi was sorry, and I tried to hit him anyway...!
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It's still strange to hear words like that, but... thanks.
[ And, after a hesitant pause... ]
Not... long before I got sent back to the school, I... [ letting his hand drop ] lost control.
I need to consume blood on a somewhat regular basis, because... of what I am. I haven't been human since I was six, you see... [ lips drawing together tightly ] Minato happened to cut himself, and I thought- I was fine, as far as the need for blood went. I wasn't feeling any differently than normal. So, it... hit out of nowhere.
[ His jawline tenses. ]
... As for Shido, I-...
[ One hand presses to the back of his neck. ]
I was stupid... I let- my emotions get the better of me, and there was no excuse there. Plain and simple, Akira saved him.
[ Yeah, no, he's holding information back, now. This is definitely the one time he's lying, because he's not even looking at Morgana, now. ]
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Consume blood, huh..... so he's a vampire, or something like it? Aren't they supposed to like..... burst into flames in the sunlight or something? He's definitely seen Aiden out and about during the day. He's definitely not undead, either. So..... vampire-like, at least in terms of diet, but not a real one. That's..... probably troublesome for him, but fine? You can't really help what you need to eat to live.
The Shido thing, though..... that's so blatantly obviously either not the truth, or not the whole truth, that Aiden might as well be wearing a flashing neon sign around his neck. There's no explanation, no context, no details--Aiden's not even looking at him anymore.
Even if he can't see it, Aiden can probably feel the flat, unimpressed look fixed on him; the Judgmental Cat Stare is turned on full blast. The unspoken "Yeah, sure. And? What else?" might as well be a blunt demand, for an empath.]
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[ Augh, okay, he's going to... release a tense breath and shake his head. ]
Apparently... overuse of magic weighs on me, mentally. I didn't know it would do that, so I wound up going too far in the forest. By the time I got back, I wasn't feeling like myself... And, while I was in the forest, I suddenly felt like something terrible had happened.
So, I listened to instinct, and I contacted Masayoshi, Goro, Kurama, and Akira. Nobody would tell me anything, so I wound up getting-... angry at being stuck where I was. One of them even told me he wasn't sure if everything was okay.
Then-... after everyone was back, Masayoshi said something that reminded me of the night that he- went off on me. That, combined with everything else, I... lashed out. I wanted to push him away, because all I could think was it would have been less painful to have never cared, at all--!
[ He's deflating a little. The guilt is finally settling properly onto his expression. ]
But, it's not an excuse. I shouldn't have overdone it with the magic, and I should know better than to let myself lose control like that. Masayoshi was sorry, and I tried to hit him anyway...!